Hey! I am working on my anxiety, my memories, all my world, so one day I can say that it’s solved and I create a better world. I don’t know yet how am I going to support this world, right now I am doing my best with what I have, and one day my life will be more or less solved and I will be able to do more things. Right now, I am focused on me, on developing me, but I mean that’s what is all about? How am I going to support others if I am not self-support. They make us believe that you can’t support others while self-supporting yourself, it’s totally untrue. It totally depends on you. My purpose in this life is to create something good, for everybody, but as me. In fact I could not be me if I wasn’t a free human being that does no harm, each day I learn to do less and less harm, and one day I’d like to be an absolute representation of a human being.
There is nothing wrong or selfish with being who you are, the person that you most enjoy, it’s just that the rest of this world, most of it it’s not the same, and we want to go there to solve this whole story called humanity. Something that supports me a lot in everything is music. In the past I would only really feel it sometimes, for example a listen a very beautiful song for first time and I instantly cry. I love sounds because they change based on who you are, it’s not something simple and stucked, the sounds of music are totally op to you. If you want I can tell you how I listen to music, how I try to enjoy art in general, how I live my life discovering this, how I develop it to its utmost potential. Since I was a child I had this, like a passion flowing through me in moments of inspiration. It’s something that you instantly say, this is me. I am here. It’s something that it’s not you, you don’t even care if it’s or it’s not, and it’s a total manifestation of the expression of your world inside of you, it’s something very personal, and open to everybody, it’s simply who you become in a moment, because if you want to support this world that door is totally open for you, it flows through your veins. I have developed this skill a lot, but yes I had it when I was a child, it was like something very sweet inside of me that I felt, like if I wanted to just be awesome. What I do, what happens to me now everytime I listen to a good song, it’s like if for a moment there was a moment of silence, there it’s absolute emptiness, for just 1 second, and then suddenly something is there, and I connect to the reality of the song, and this is something inside of us that I think we look for, because for me there is nothing else than that. So I listen to the good song, and how can I explain it, I just connect with it, and you can develop this, so that you can do it with your art, or simply with your expression, art is when you take the risk to live, and you become something of value for yourself. And don’t look at the art you have already created, in your past, to judge it, you can’t judge it, it happened in a moment of absolute expression, it’s more than you and you could not understand it, but you can create this thing that it’s more than you and you can’t judge, so that you stop judging yourself and you become something unconditional. Also don’t abuse it, you could not, and if you do you will wish you haven’t. Just enjoy the moments that it comes, and if it’s there, if you see it, just go in there and discover what life has given to you. Live can be beautiful if it’s full of moments like that, and you one day look at it and you can say goodbye to the good and the bad happily, you want to say goodbye, and with your life you were creating more and more stories, and some of them were beautiful and shiny and got close to the truth, and then you die, and it’s the most happy day of yor life, all stories have ended, you are back home, do you know what home means? Just home. And you don’t fear anymore, you are not fear, you know you are not fear. Why did we ever accept we are fear? Even if we die, why would we die with fear? That’s why we have to grow more and more, so we are ready to face the fear, to be more than the fear, and then we can live forever.
So this is what I wanted to say, a good advice, I do with me to discover who I am. When I listen to good songs, it’s now automatic, I just want to be one with the song, I can’t anymore to pretend that it’s not beautiful, well, fucking beautiful! And this is something that, like jimmy hendrix said, it’s something that can be in life, and it’s in live, specially when you are sharing your life with the life of others, it’s there to be shared, or at least expressed. It’s something that happens as one, you are doing something and suddenly a black hole of inspiration takes you to express something that is one, and you notice what the mind is doing, and you say to your mind, I don’t allow you! Anymore! I want to express all this inspiration!! And we all have energy so we all have inspiration, for me inspiration is the best state for energy, it’s where everything can happen. Literally everything.
And well, here I am developing this, when I see myself in a moment, and I have this expression, I take it and I expressed until I am calmed, and that’s a nice state, it’s like if I had worked for the good of this universe. I lost the ability to have these moments of pure expression, and what I fear about life is this, that you can come here and lose yourself, and you are always here!! But I don’t like the sensation of believing I am lost. But it’s just that, a sensation, I am everything, and I will be here always. It’s curious, you are there like, literally yourself, saying, where am I?? Where am I?
And this inspiration, has brought for me a big responsability. And within that it’s helping me organize all my life and experiences, so I don’t reapeat my same mistakes again.
Well that’s all, if you are full of energy like me and you hear a nice song, DON’T MISS THE MOMENT!! Literally black out, and join that song, the sounds and notes can reveal something about you. And let it be, let it totally be, it happens without you.